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Yesterday I was washing my hands for the umpteenth time when I suddenly felt afraid.
I've been handling this COVID-19 thing pretty well - head down, nose to the grindstone, 'what needs to be done?' mode - then go out and do it. I'm a bit stressed out at work - even though I'm working from home - as so many changes need to be dealt with and I'm usually waiting on someone else who's equally stressed out further up the chain. I've been concerned, angry, busy, but I haven't felt afraid.
At that point, I did.
I've done what I can... I think, and that's about the limit of my abilities. I'm not in bad health but I am 'of that age' but I know people who are older and in worse shape. I don't really feel afraid for myself or for others... I just felt afraid. Scared. The world is Not Okay and this is Not Fine.
The moment passed after a time. I'm sure I'll have those moments again... probably more as the weeks progress. From the research we haven't reach peak infection in our area yet - I'm guessing if we keep the social isolation up we'll peak in another two, three weeks. Locally, the hospitals and health care systems are okay at the moment but I know the worst is ahead of us.
We have supplies, we have power and high speed internet. We're doing okay. I know that I will get scared again but I hope I won't be living in a state of continual fear.
Stay healthy folks.
-m
I've been handling this COVID-19 thing pretty well - head down, nose to the grindstone, 'what needs to be done?' mode - then go out and do it. I'm a bit stressed out at work - even though I'm working from home - as so many changes need to be dealt with and I'm usually waiting on someone else who's equally stressed out further up the chain. I've been concerned, angry, busy, but I haven't felt afraid.
At that point, I did.
I've done what I can... I think, and that's about the limit of my abilities. I'm not in bad health but I am 'of that age' but I know people who are older and in worse shape. I don't really feel afraid for myself or for others... I just felt afraid. Scared. The world is Not Okay and this is Not Fine.
The moment passed after a time. I'm sure I'll have those moments again... probably more as the weeks progress. From the research we haven't reach peak infection in our area yet - I'm guessing if we keep the social isolation up we'll peak in another two, three weeks. Locally, the hospitals and health care systems are okay at the moment but I know the worst is ahead of us.
We have supplies, we have power and high speed internet. We're doing okay. I know that I will get scared again but I hope I won't be living in a state of continual fear.
Stay healthy folks.
-m
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